So I have been trying to find myself and trying to be a better me and trying to understand why things happen the way they do and so on.

I know over the last X-amount of days I've acted foolish, said things i shouldn't have, befriend-ed people I shouldnt have (girl at work), and just been so stupid. I know Ayla is most likely to read this and thats OK.

Because I was completely caught at the wrong moment, went completely High-school-psycho on her and was a complete moron. So from the bottom of my heart, im sorry. :[


But I have like 10 new sketches I need to get on here, but I have no scanner cuz my dad being the genius he ISNT ... Threw out the scanner. Dont ask why, I think he is just losing it in his old age. But many different styles and drawings that im proud of and want to show the site.

In some ways I am liking where im heading in life, I've gone back into a comfort nook in my life.. And its not all bad, but I just feel like breaking free of it all. And at the same time, I dont. I hate that im always conflicted about EVERYTHING. Grrr.


Well Sadly its 11:50 and im tired, lol. But going to fool around on Facebook and Myspace. Gnight.